no thanks, I'm fine..

between a must and your will.

everybody could choose their way to live. They could be free whenever they want. but, it wasn't happened in my life, my people's paradigm, my family mainstream.
my family give me the pathetic rules: you can choose your way, when you've finished your study in institute... all you must know, relatively, the surabaya's people way turn their son to high college school.
I was tried to know about their feeling. but, they must try to know how their son feeling too. But, why are there a war and having a unfriendly ending when a diferent paradigm comes? let me turn to analyse..

agony pain

the artwork done at 2008. used water-color at BC-TIC paper A3 (cut)
this is inspired by someone who tell me her pain in her past. She's aborted her baby. It's very hard moment that she has. for a few month she must feel abortion effect: agony pain around stomach, down, and brokenhearted for her boyfriend. her long story make me thinking that why abortion have been a great troubles. It made "perfect" effect: agony pain, in your body and all of your mind. traumacy? absolutly.

It's my first post. I've found this picture in my old folder and try to recollect them.. maybe I'll make this first post like a chicken soup for teenage.
This picture made at january 2008. The time as mooikite (my band) on full team - now, we go on 2 person, without the drummer-
I remember how he went over, I felt that my dream is ruined. Then my big brother tell me that none of people could ruined our dream, just by trying to keep strong and focus to the objectives. then, its make feel stronger than before.
now, I'll try to rebuilt up my destination and always remember that a trouble just a challange.